March 18, 2009

Is that a hair in my sock?

In the last year I have had two haircuts, one in South Korea and one in North Carolina (sidenote- I can't tell you how many times I've started a sentence with "When I lived in North Korea" because of that combination of living places). If you include the redo of the NC-mall-haircut a day later, I've actually had three hair cuts in the last 16 months. I can't remember how long it had been before I left for Korea that I had a haircut, but as you can see based on last year, it was most likely several months prior. Every day I've been telling myself to just go down to SuperCuts and get it cut, just a trim because lord knows you shouldn't make drastic style changes while hormonally challenged. Every day I convince myself not to, it's just a little pain after a shower to get it combed out, no big deal, suck it up your husband is at war ya wuss. And then today I had a brilliant idea, one that would continue enabling my haircut-laziness as well as serve a good cause for this uber-vitamined hair I've finally got going for me. I will commit to growing my hair the entire time SGT T is deployed, with the rare trim thrown in for avoiding the dry heaves caused by the disgust I get when looking at the split ends I'm sporting, and then chop it all off after he is back and donate to Locks of Love. It's a win-win, no? I win, because I don't have to worry about getting my hair cut, the kids win because they get some red locks, and my husband wins because not only am I "growing out my hair the entire time he is gone to show my support for him and the rest of the troops" but I will cut it all off shortly after he returns so he doesn't have to live with my nasty long hair getting into everything. So really, it's like a win-win-win^2 situation.

March 10, 2009

I've missed you

I've had a bit of social life overload lately and I fear my blog may have paid the price for my lack of life-balancing skills. It's been quite some time since I've had more than one thing at a time to do (i.e., interact with human beings and write here once in a while, see? it's so much!) and I fear I'm a bit rusty. Last week a friend from Utah came to visit, it was awesome and a little weird to have Utah visiting me in Oregon instead of me visiting Utah! To remedy that I rode back out to Utah with her so I could visit a couple of other people, which is what I'm currently doing.

I've got to say, it's been such a roller coaster week for me and I've been pondering some blog decisions I feel I need to make but am no closer to reaching a conclusion. First though, I want to thank one of the most awesome women I know for doing that which I've needed done for the gods only know how long: she knocked me right the hell out of the funk I've been in for at least a year, probably longer. The first night I was at her house I was in the bathroom and noticed that something looked kind of weird with my face. I stared in the mirror for several minutes before I figured out what it was: my laugh lines - I could see them! And they were red from overuse. I can't tell you how incredibly awesome it has felt to experience three days of laughter and fun and lightheartedness, even with a serious conversation here and there, after wondering for so long if this was me now. This miserable, frowning grumpy face that I just know people look at and think, wow, what's her problem? Incredibly awesome, and I don't know how to thank you!

Anyways, so I guess that would be part of the high, fun roller coaster stuff. The lower parts of the ride have to do with this blog and some contact I've recently had from a couple of exes (why more than one has recently blessed, ahem, me with their presence on facebook is beyond me). I've been contemplating starting a new blog and keeping it more anonymous so that I feel more comfortable talking about some things that right now I am not comfortable talking about because my parents and aunts and uncles and friends read this. There are some things that I think I'd like to ramble about but that I don't necessarily want people we know to know about, you know? Nothing big, but if I wanted to vent about SGT T's ACU infatuation and not worry about it hurting his feelings by it coming up in conversation unexpectedly, I could! And now with the unfortunate ex-perience, at least one of them potentially knows of this blog and can pop in anytime he wants and I don't think I like that. Granted, it probably empowers him if I stop writing, but why should I make my life available to him if all he does is make assumptions and judge me? Talk about inhibiting what I will share, you know?

I know, I'm probably overreacting and this is what I want your guys' help with. I would love some suggestions or advice on if you think I should keep this blog or not. I thought about keeping it and just doing pregnancy updates for the family and stuff, but that probably wont happen if I think unwelcome readers may be lurking nearby. If this were like a totally popular blog that more than 5 people read, I would probably just say screw it because chances are I'd have more than one asshole reading it, but I'm not and I happen to know the asshole reading this one. And oh boy did I just stir up a shitcan of worms, right?

By far, though, the positive of the last week and a half has far outweighed the negative and I have been having a great time catching up with everybody. I still think they should all just pack up and move with me whenever I move, but for some reason nobody things that is a good idea. Well, one of them is somewhat willing, but only if it is a more permanent move than a 3 year enlistment provides, which, AWESOME!