July 2, 2009

Boring, boring, and some more boring

It's been a while since I've written anything worthwhile, and I fear I still have nothing really hearty to say - nothing you can really "sink your teeth into", you could say. Alas, that hasn't really ever stopped me - you should see the ridiculously boring and mundane emails I send my poor deprived husband! "Today I woke up and brushed my teeth. The cats were really cute. I had a cheese sandwich for lunch, with Cool Ranch Doritos (of which I can't seem to get enough). I peed a lot today. I love you." Sad, really. I feel sorry for him, but don't know what to do to change it. I try perusing the BBC news website for interesting stories to share (his internet works very poorly so he never knows what is going on in the world); I try sharing what is going on locally and with my family and friends, but we are all in such a mellow, cruise along to get along place right now that there isn't much to tell. Even the growth of our fetus is a little boring at the moment - how do you answer the question "How is Chili doing?" every day, when all she does is grow and move around like an invasive and over-sized parasite in my belly? Some days I get lucky and get to relay the events at the doctors office: the doctor said everything is fine; I weigh more than a house; my belly is xx cm big. Even the results of these appointments are mundane and boring. Not that I'm complaining, no, never would I complain to have no pressing or urgent news from the doctors office. Grateful is what I am for that.

My point, if I must come up with one, is that the lack of attention I've given my blog isn't due to a jet-setting, too busy to post, lifestyle, but instead due to a serious lack of creativity and motivation on my part. I mean, the baby does grow and move a lot and that is exciting. The cats are adorably cute, and on a very regular basis. I do, indeed, have cheese sandwiches with Cool Ranch Doritos for lunch more often than not (though alas, today, we are out of both cheese and doritos and I'm not sure how to handle this turn of events). So yes, these things do happen. Maybe if I put some more effort into my thoughts I could find more entertaining ways of sharing these events. I just sat here for a whole minute trying to think of a clever and even if just in my mind entertaining way to tell you about my quest for cheese but came up with nothing. Creative dry spell, to say the least.

So, to keep it short and sweet, here's what I've been doing/what's been going on around these parts:

- I reached 30 weeks pregnant this week and still feel pretty great. While there is some guilt associated with this (the feeling great, not reaching 30 weeks), I am pretty excited to be where I am and feeling how I feel! Only 10 (give or take a couple) weeks to go!

- SGT T is, as of this very moment, alive and well. We have officially passed our previous separation time span of 5 months and it is beginning to show in random bouts of serious grumpiness on both our parts. Mine gets taken out on family, sometimes on him in our very infrequent instant message conversations. His gets taken out on, well, I don't know, maybe his guys, maybe not - I have no way to know. Maybe he doesn't take it out on anybody, he is often the bigger man than I in that department. Nevertheless, it is challenging and as the delivery of our baby approaches the reality and danger of where he is and what he is going through weighs heavier and heavier on my mind. It adds to the weight of all that we are missing out on together, all that can't be said or shared because the internet, while our saving grace during this time, is also mostly only good for "keeping in touch" and you don't want to just "keep in touch" with your partner in life - at any point in time, let alone while he is in a war and you are carrying your child. Enough of that, though, we are both healthy and surrounded either by loving family and friends or by well-trained people and deadly machines - which is all I could ask for for now!

- I've got an overwhelming number of projects I hope to complete before the baby arrives and I've yet to really start any of them. Still. Sewing, crafting, shopping, so much to do and so many other things to distract myself with. Like reading. And eating. And sleeping.

- Oh the sleeping! Many people have told me to sleep as much as I can now because I wont be able to soon, and it seems my body has finally taken this advice to heart. It could be the heat which drains the energy from me in no time, or it could be the boredom, most likely a combination of the two. Although I am pretty sure that any sleep I have now isn't really going to do much of anything to make the lack of sleep I've got coming up any more enjoyable. I suppose, in the wee hours when I drag out my boob once again to feed the bottomless pit of my babe's belly, I'll look back at those hours of extra sleep with a fond longing, maybe even a bit of jealousy for that naive, over-rested girl.

- The rest of my summer is shaping up to be a bit busier than it has been, but still comparatively low key. This coming weekend (the 4th), I'll take my parents to the airport for their escape to paradise, and then try do to some shopping for various items I need. The weekend after I am going south to visit a cousin, I haven't been to her house in about 5 years! The following weekend I think is open. Then my baby shower! Then I think the rest of the summer is just be getting ready, mentally and physically, and making sure I've got everything I need to take care of this girl once she shows up.

- I've been going through pictures, looking for ones of me as an infant so I can see how much Chili looks like me or her dad. I'm scared to show SGT T what I've found for fear that he will regret the day he put his baby maker in my baby maker - a cute little newborn was not what I was! He says he was a pretty cute baby, so hopefully she'll look like him at birth and like me as she gets older. My toddler and early childhood years were probably the pinnacle of my good looks! :)

Now, if you'll excuse my boring rambling, I've got to shower and figure out what to do about the no cheese or doritos issue.


Carrie said...

Wow! 30 weeks already... She'll be here in no time! I'm glad things are going well on the baby front and sorry to hear who hard it is on the hubby side. I can't even imagine being apart for that long!

Lisa and Josh said...

That is so sad to think you guys only get to "keep in touch." Makes me feel selfish for complaining that I have my husband around all the time! Your baby will be beautiful and you'll think so even if others don't... ha ha - of course we will!

Scenic Pit Stops said...

Carrie: Thanks, girl. It's tough but most of the time I'm able to find the positive - for example, I can't IMAGINE sharing a bed right now!!! :)

Lisa and Josh: No worries, we get to IM often enough, we'll just have to re-learn how to talk to each other verbally when we see each other! Complain away!